Mother & Child

Abstract

While becoming a mother has been my greatest gift, it has also been my greatest challenge. My children have been my teachers.

Many years ago I experienced the loss of a child while she is alive. I was discarded and she became a ghost. She left with her heart and love for me. I have learned that we can have the greatest intentions but we do not control outcomes, or how others perceive us. I had dreams of how things would be that were not. This long journey of personal isolation and depression led me to the depths of despair. I am now different from the person I was then. I now embrace the central Buddhist teachings on impermanence, selflessness, and the fact that attachments cause deep suffering. At some point we, humans, all lose what we have loved. These are the two sides of the coin of life. But if we have not loved then we have not lived. If we have lived and loved deeply we can access our wholeness with self-love and compassion.